Let Go and Let God

Happy 33 weeks to me! It’s mind blowing how fast this pregnancy has gone. Guess there is a lot more going on, versus last time when I was jobless, twiddling my thumbs waiting anxiously for my first born. This time I’d say I have 2 jobs, being a mom and running my Etsy shop. I was hoping to continue through Christmas and January making frames, so I’d have a little cushion for bills, but I got some unexpected, yet delightful news. The frames are no longer in stock from my supplier! Luckily, they had just enough left to send me to fulfill all outstanding orders, and said to check back at the end of January for them. My cut-off for Christmas orders was yesterday so now that is the official end of the frames for a while! I actually couldn’t be happier to have a little break, after making them now for over a year. Since I started, I’ve had about 400 Etsy orders, and have about 20 more to complete this week until I can say I’m done! It’s a great feeling because although it’s been pretty steady income, I would love to begin new projects I haven’t had time for.. and hello.. get ready for this baby! Lots left to do in the nursery. And everywhere. And Christmas shopping. And spending time with our only child for the last 48 days. And birthday party planning. Oh my!

In other news, baby is doing great. Feeling lots of movement, now in my ribs. I guess he wasn’t big enough before, but officially starting to get  very crowded! Last go round, I complained about soreness high up, right at the bra line, and it’s back! Being stretched, ribs being pushed, all that fun stuff. The good part is, I am less pregnant than time during the holidays so it’s not as bad. Looking forward to Christmas Eve game night with the family! And relaxing, eating, family, and playing Santa! Harper will have SO (too) much to play with, but seeing her face and excitement will be worth it!

Finally… How awesome is our God! The past few months, I’ve really been struggling in a certain area of my life. I’ve prayed about it, tried everything I thought of to fix the situation, and ultimately decided there’s not much I can do but wait it out and give it time. But things kept getting worse, like I couldn’t see the end of the tunnel. Well the other night, I’m feeling like a failure, sad, bitter, and hopeless. Don’t know what else to do..really upset. And then suddenly I just feel overcome with Jesus and plain as day hear in my head and heart: “Make time for me and I will show you the way. Just make time for me. I will take care of it and help you through. I am here.” It was so clear to me. That night I chose to let the little things go. I prayed. I opened my heart even more. I realized that though I had been praying off and on, and hoping for change, I was not making time for the most important thing. Part of the original problem is that I’m too busy anyway, and this just proved that I do need to stop..step back and take time for me, for God, for my relationships and ultimate responsibilities, rather than silly things that don’t really matter. And the very next day… the situation did a 180. Completely and obviously changed, and the day was even better than I could have imagined. It’s always going to take effort, but  I truly feel like all of that was an act of God and message to me, and a reminder to Let go and Let God. Looking forward to this new little journey in bettering my life.